The Skeptical Mind : ZetaTalk, The Grand Conspiracy 1995

From: blaster9@a...
Date: Thu Jan 25, 2001 5:06 am
Subject: Re: [tt-social] hello from Flagstaff/Reply

I find myself still, after 5 years of this, bouncing back and forth between
believing and dismissing it all as the next "Heaven's gate" (everybody
crindge).

I'm not even really sure i would want to meet someone in person about all this.
Its hard enough to handle all the stuff going on in daily life to even
consider the Zeta issue, much less meet up with someone to talk about it. But
then again, i probably wouldnt feel as crazy as i do believing all this.

I tend to feel myself pulled down the middle, in part because of all this, but
mostly because i know better. I know better than to be as slacking as i am,
Zeta issue or not. I know better than to make the slight excuses that i
occasionally make due to my lazyness. I know better than to let my temper get
the best of me, for in my 24 short years, i've come to the realization that all
things, while enormous in their weight at the moment, are but feathers in the
wind the next.

I rarely post on here. (scoffing) I rarely even read most of the posts. Just
the ones which happen to capture my curiosity, which i've come to find as being
both a blessing in the ability to look at the world in wonder, opening my self
to the endless possibilities that lie at our feet everyday, which few of us
truely consider, much less go after as we probably should. I also find it a
curse, saying to myself "ignorance is bliss". Then, i feel my fathers voice,
weather physically present or simply an echo in my mind saying "ignorance may
be bliss, but you'd hate yourself for the way you would be. And besides,
knowledge is power". I always feel like throwing in "yes, knowledge is power,
and absolute knowlege is absolute power. Power corrupts, and absolute power
corrupts absolutely." But then i know he would simply say something to the
effect of "thats where our free will comes in, letting us choose to let that
power corrupt us or free us for what is to come."

I'm rambling a bit. Ok, a lot. I feel so much running through my head at
once sometimes that i feel like a locked up computer... my brain simply shuts
down until i feel like activating it again. As you can tell by my spelling,
that re-activation happens only so often heheh.

.. In the past couple of years, i've found my world crashing around me. From
my disalusions in the Air Force to my grand father almost passing to cancer, to
my mother... going insane. Who would think that talking to a few people on
the internet could mean more to a person than her family. Or that she could
deny what she had done so completely that she fooled even herself into
believeing that she had done no wrong.

Talk to me about the Zetas, i'll sit down in a chair, take a deep breath, and
look on silently as the tears well up in my eyes.

Mike


		hello from flagstaff
	From: jimrankin2003@h... Date: Thu Jan 25, 2001 2:13 am Subject: hello from Flagstaff Is anyone on this news group from the Flagstaff, AZ area? I would love to be able to talk to someone face to face who feels the ZetaTalk material has the ring of truth to it. I haven't met a single other soul so far who feels as I do. Are we all nuts I wonder? So, I would greatly appreciate any replies as I'm feeling very isolated from the rest of my friends and family. Thanks very much. Jim Rankin

	From: viper34562@a... Date: Thu Jan 25, 2001 4:28 am Subject: Re: [tt-social] hello from Flagstaff/Reply Hello Jim: I am not from Flagstaff, but you are NOT alone. Many have understood the Zeta topics, many choose not to discuss them. Frankly, blending in is not a bad idea at this time. For as you know, time is short. If you care to speak, I will "dialog" with you over the net, that you are aware is a good thing.........for when others are "going nuts" you will at least have understanding and can act in a manner which enables you to survive. I am here if you need conversation! Viper

	From: blaster9@a... Date: Thu Jan 25, 2001 5:06 am Subject: Re: [tt-social] hello from Flagstaff/Reply I find myself still, after 5 years of this, bouncing back and forth between believing and dismissing it all as the next "Heaven's gate" (everybody crindge). I'm not even really sure i would want to meet someone in person about all this. Its hard enough to handle all the stuff going on in daily life to even consider the Zeta issue, much less meet up with someone to talk about it. But then again, i probably wouldnt feel as crazy as i do believing all this. I tend to feel myself pulled down the middle, in part because of all this, but mostly because i know better. I know better than to be as slacking as i am, Zeta issue or not. I know better than to make the slight excuses that i occasionally make due to my lazyness. I know better than to let my temper get the best of me, for in my 24 short years, i've come to the realization that all things, while enormous in their weight at the moment, are but feathers in the wind the next. I rarely post on here. (scoffing) I rarely even read most of the posts. Just the ones which happen to capture my curiosity, which i've come to find as being both a blessing in the ability to look at the world in wonder, opening my self to the endless possibilities that lie at our feet everyday, which few of us truely consider, much less go after as we probably should. I also find it a curse, saying to myself "ignorance is bliss". Then, i feel my fathers voice, weather physically present or simply an echo in my mind saying "ignorance may be bliss, but you'd hate yourself for the way you would be. And besides, knowledge is power". I always feel like throwing in "yes, knowledge is power, and absolute knowlege is absolute power. Power corrupts, and absolute power corrupts absolutely." But then i know he would simply say something to the effect of "thats where our free will comes in, letting us choose to let that power corrupt us or free us for what is to come." I'm rambling a bit. Ok, a lot. I feel so much running through my head at once sometimes that i feel like a locked up computer... my brain simply shuts down until i feel like activating it again. As you can tell by my spelling, that re-activation happens only so often heheh. .. In the past couple of years, i've found my world crashing around me. From my disalusions in the Air Force to my grand father almost passing to cancer, to my mother... going insane. Who would think that talking to a few people on the internet could mean more to a person than her family. Or that she could deny what she had done so completely that she fooled even herself into believeing that she had done no wrong. Talk to me about the Zetas, i'll sit down in a chair, take a deep breath, and look on silently as the tears well up in my eyes. Mike

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