Troubled Times
From: "timothypop" <timothypop@y...
Date: Wed Jul 3, 2002 11:01 pm
Subject: Troubled Times

Hello: Seems the reality of the upcomming disastor is beginning to take its toll on me. I really did not really think about the effects of the difficult decisions I have had to make. I really seem to be a victim of the dilemmas I seem to have gotten myself into.

Don't worry, I'm not asking for anything, not even advice or recommendations...maybe just shoulder to cry on.

A few years back I learned about the coming catastrophe, and started doing what, I suppose, is the normal, preliminary study about all the survival tactics as described in the TT Website, but not really doing anything of real consequence.

But about a year ago, I decided to dive into it with all my devotion and I have started preparing for the 2003 event. On weekends I try to go camping, and try out various survival scenarios...(no bug eating), but I do try to observe the flora and animals, and try to resolve as many 'what if' conditions as I can. I'm telling you all, and maybe I'm just clumsy, but I just can't get the knack of starting a fire by rubbing sticks together!

But ever since I started my fullest of commitments, my life has been thrown into complete turmoil! My friends all think I'm a fool, my work collages, just can't seem to do enough in providing me with a huge array 'put-down' jokes. Turn-around is pretty high in my line of work, but there always seems to be somebody there long enough to pass on the jokes to the new guys...and the cycle of ridicule continues. My wife thinks I'm an idiot. My relatives just don't say anything to me, and pretty much try to avoid me altogether. I have no real connection to any of my relatives anymore. My poor kids just don't know what to think, and are pretty much stuck in the middle. In one ear, I'm trying to enlighten and prepare them for the most catastrophic change of their life, and in the other ear they are being told that I don't know what I'm talking about. I've lived most of my life, and it is they who will have to deal with the new world changes. But it all seems pretty hopeless, and nobody believes me....except me, which makes me nobody.

I got a second part-time job to help pay for the items I feel I need to purchase and experiment. Its only a few hours a day, three times a week after my full time job, but it's the only way to get some extra money. But that means I have missed out on a lot of family time, and since nobody wants to go camping, seems I hardly see any of them anymore.

My oldest boy (16), was almost thrown out of school this last school season because of a fight he got into with a bunch of other boys because of all the taunting and teasing from the ideas I have told him about the upcoming events, which he, understandably, passes on to his 'so-called' friends. What's even worse is that the principle of the school told me I had better 'straighten-up', and get these foolish ideas out of my boy's head, and if my boy ever gets into trouble again, I'm looking at the real possibily of getting him permanently expelled!. He even let me know that he would prefer me not to enroll any of my kids at the school! It's a private school so I guess there is not much I can do about it.

Well, three months ago, I purchased some land at a safe site location (whose location I have not told anyone, not even tell my wife or kids). But it's a good 900 miles away, so at most I may be able to do 3 or 4 more trips out to it, before getting there for the real event. When I told my wife I had purchased what is really a beautiful piece of land(about 100 acres), you all all can just guess as to what hit the fan! My wife really went ballistic! No way was she going to put up with this F&^king Cr@p...anymore! So after a few weeks of a very strained discussion, guess who no longer lives at the house anymore!...yup... yours truly! I even went as far as promising that I would try to forget all this stuff and lead a 'normal', yet ignorant, life, but no go, my wife would just not listen to reason. So I went house hopping for a while, living at the homes of what few friends I have left, until I found a pretty cheap studio apartment, where I now reside. So here I am, alone, with nothing but lousy basic cable TV, noisy neighbors, noisy refrigerator, noisy swamp cooler, and I swear the slowest damm internet connection in the city!

Since my ouster, I've had nothing but more frustration and dismay! My wife has presented me with divorce papers. My wife's brother, who is a lawyer, has joyfully endowed his experience in handling all the paperwork and court proceedings for her. I'm am pretty much looking at losing everything. When I confirmed to the judge about my beliefs and actions as told by my wife, he pretty much just shook his head in disgust, and told me straight to my face that he was not at all surprised that my wife wanted to leave me and that he could even see grounds of finding me mentally incompetent! Looks like I have absolutely no chance of obtaining any type of custody of my children. My oldest boy (bless him), does seem to want believe me, so I might be able to wrangle some type of visitation rights with him, but all the younger ones, who really don't know what's going on, just don't seem to like me at all anymore and tell me to go away. I guess that is just their way of dealing with all of this. But it really is no fun hearing from the children and women I love that I'm bad, and wish that I would just go away forever.

But until everybody finally comes to their senses and realizes the truth, I'll guess I'll just have to hunker down and keep doing what I do...since there seems to be nothing else left for me to do. I have decided to pretty much fight everything and stretch this breakup for as long as possible. I told this to my lawyer, he just smiles, and states that he will delay as best he can, but to just make sure I pay his bill. Next May, attitudes should change. The next hearing is in September.

I'm taking off the 5th of July so I'll have a 4 day holiday and plan travel up to my safe-site land...alone. I plan to store some food and water and start plans on a shelter of some sort.

You all take care....
From: Tristan Faulkner <everything_tristan@y...
Date: Thu Jul 4, 2002 12:03 am
Subject: Re: Troubled Times

Hello,

I cannot help but feel empathy for your current
situation. I too have lost someone dear to me since
learning of the "Truth". I told them everything..I too
thought they may understand. But instead, all I heard
was the infamous line, "If the world is realy going to
be like that, I dont want to live".

Naturally, I was horrified. No amount of discussion
will change this. No amount of evidence that you show
will convince them. In fact the more you press about
it, the more uncomfortable they will become. I know
its hard to leave family and friends at home when you
decide to move on. I too am haunted by what fate they
may face. But its UP TO THEM. It would be WRONG to
force them to go.

Try to think of the people you may encounter
afterwards. You wont have to convince THEM something
terrible has happened. You may be surprised to find
you know what to say to these shocked survivors. A
wink and a smile of confidence to someone in distress
can be the biggest boost! Be strong and confident.
Have conviction in your decisions. It's natural to
have a weak moment, but dont let it overcome your
desire to help. Have a quiet moment of reflection,
then get to work!

You're not weird. Forget that judge and lawyer. Their
ways are soon to be passed. A new world is dawning
where the elites will know longer press a foot upon
the weak or careing. You are upon the right path, my
friend. Dont give up now.

I wish you well.

Tristan Faulkner
From: "Mike Herrmann" <mikeh@t...
Date: Thu Jul 4, 2002 12:36 am
Subject: Re: [tt-social] Troubled Times

Hello,

Man, I thought I had it bad :-).... I believe you'll find that most people
here have experienced some form of isolation from friends and family due to
beliefs and I am no exception....been through it all. Alas, the time to
depart draws near for many, and I'm sorry for the pain it causes you. My
suggestion is to say no more to anyone concerning a pole shift...period. If
you have been banished from the tribe accept it and get on with your life.
It sounds like your fam ily life is pretty much in disarray, to which you
have my sympathies so why not pack up your creature needs, get a dog and
on your way out the door moon them all and head for your safe location.and
consider yourself fortunate that you have sense enough to listen to your
intuitions. Take your son with you as apparently he is of a similar feather;
you will need his help preparing. You can probably find a job nearby. If
your family wants to join you later they have that choice.

Chin-up man and be well,
Mike

PS.....don't tell the lawyer where the land is.
From: Steve Havas <shavas@s...
Date: Thu Jul 4, 2002 3:28 am
Subject: Re: [tt-social] Troubled Times

Sorry to hear about your situation - it seems you have received an extra large
dose of PS related trauma and stress! Keep strong, less than a year to go!
From: MikeL <mikelob@g...
Date: Thu Jul 4, 2002 3:40 am
Subject: Re: [tt-social] Troubled Times

I would like to complement you on the certainty you have and your
ability to stick with it. This is a rarity that only a few on this list
have. Most people would have gone into denial long before going through
what you have been through. I would like to acknowledge you for your
strength in a time of extreme loneliness and not being able to share
your knowing reality of the future. We all have had our version of this
story to tell but this story is the most trying I have heard.

I have been on these lines for over 5 years now and I can say I have had
the most success with total strangers. Especially where there is a
limited time and the probability of never seeing them again is high. If
approached on a gradient with a tell it like it is attitude (and you
have nothing to hide or gain from) you can have successes.

For example: I was in Home Depot looking for some window parts several
weeks ago. I was asking a young man who worked there where I might find
a certain type of parts for a window opener I was making. He asked what
I was building? At first I avoided the question. The second time he
asked I told him you don't want to know. But, as the conversation
progressed I did tell him I was building steel windows for a monolithic
dome. He wanted to know why the heavy duty steel windows. I told him on
a gradient about the Polar Shift. He was fascinated and asked
questions. At the end of the conversation he said you may have saved my
life, I hope to see you again.

Sometimes these things are arranged by the Zs sometimes not. But the
point is you will have very few successes with relatives and friends if
at all. You will have much more chance of success with total
strangers. Work it on gradient when you feel the time is right. The
occasional wins make you feel it all worth while. Other times one can
feel like I have been cursed to have this knowledge. I am not be able to
help other with it, especially those I love. What good is it.

Troubled Times before the PS = Frustrating Times

MikeL
From: Jeanann Jameson <jjeanann2000@y...
Date: Thu Jul 4, 2002 3:41 am
Subject: Re: [tt-social] Troubled Times

hi understand what your going through. i live with 3
of my 4 kids cause i'm on ssi. i can't even bring the
subject up when two of them are home. they all think
i'm nuts. my oldest son lets me talk about ps he kinda
hopes this will happen. all you can do is continue
with your plans just before you leave let your wife no
where the land is so she can join you. when things
start happening she and everyone else will be eating
their words. lite a pink candle and watch it burn for
self esteeem, self love, and wish them well when you
decide to go. when all this happens you will be the
one ready for it so hang in there i send you love and
light. jeanann
From: "caswellca" <caswat@c...
Date: Thu Jul 4, 2002 3:45 pm
Subject: Re: Troubled Times

My thoughts are with you, timothypop. I too have just survived a
marriage breakup, in part because of my belief in TT and my desire to
prepare for everyone in the family. They also ridiculed my beliefs,
or paid lip service to preps.

Keep in mind that people are more than ever before, deciding on their
orientation, service-to-self vs. service-to-other. That is something
they must do on their own, that was predetermined before this
incarnation. Although it is extremely painful, we must let them make
this choice. If it is to be, they will not decide until the last
minute and then will have the knowledge of your safe place. If you
have not yet found the website, Operation Terra is very helpful in
understanding this choice.

Best wishes on your journey, and feel free to contact me if you want
to talk.

Cass
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